Reborn

 I am a mut.  Or maybe I am not.  I can go back to my grandpas grandpa.  But beyond that.  I do not know.  I have no problem learning the dark secrets of my past.  Because they are not who I am.  I am me.  And I will make my own choices.  Free will has happened in this world.  If I die to morrow.  So be it.  I am happy.  With sadness in my eyes.  From just being on this world.  The suffering is real.  I am no king.  I am nothing.  Just a man.  Born and will die.  All it takes to end a life.  One person who is following orders.  It is wrong.  But our choice.  Nobody is better.  We are still the same at the end.  We all share this world. 

 We are all gods in our own right.  After the son left this earth.  So do the best we can.  Until he returns 

Do not murder but always protect yourself. Say as you wish. All humans are free. Do not harm woman and children. Do not falter on your beliefs but be willing to learn. Honor your family as long as they honor you. Honor the brotherhood till they do not honor you. turn the other cheek.

 I will do better.  I will not give away.  I will teach.  Give a man a fish he is fine that day.  Teach him how to get his own.  He is free from hunger for the rest of his life. 

 I am nothing.  I am everything.  The same as before.  The same next time. 

 I will break it.  Not because I want to.  Because I will always come first.  Lost for a while.  But I remember now why.  I lost my way in life.  What means something to me.  So I will love me first.  My family second.  Even if that hurts you.  Because I do not need things to be happy.  I will only feel happy with those that I love around me. 

 I mean you no ill will. You became family to me. We shared meals. Holidays. Laughs. Secrets. I know you will see this. I am sorry I feel hurt. Betrayed. I didn't need anything from you. Just a friend.

 I do not seek any power.  I just seek to find a better way for this world.  But I am not a brave man.  No leader. I hold a lot of fear.  For anybody can truly do anything in this world.  We all just need to do something as one.  I wish I held that answer. 

 I will never say I am better than anyone.  I have made my own mistakes in life.  I am still paying for most of them. 

 Why is there so many idols.  To worship anything as holy.  That is wrong.  But you are allowed to have your faith.  As I am to have mine.  Things change but the laws are still there.  Many that exist for things that matter. 

 I am wrong lots of times.  I have no problem say so when I am not right.  Why do you look down on me.  When you already showed me my error. 

 I like to be right.  Is that so wrong.  If I am why is that a problem.  Can you prove it beyond a doubt. 

 I will start anew. The man that is mad. He has to die. So something even better can grow. Follow me on a new journey. Not one that starts with heartbreak. Running and hiding. Evil men.